Monday, October 31, 2005

the more i'm at lost...

assalamualaikum...peace be upon you

I am in sadness and in lost...

Tonight, is the 27th night of ramadhan. It is a great night. But not to me. Tonight I have lost the battle against my nafsu. I have sinned. I have wasted the night with deeds that should not be done.

I am in sadness and in lost...

I only managed to get two rakaat of tahajjud and two rakaat of taubah. Sincerity? I don't know - don't dare say. The only thing that i knew is that I am truly ashamed and truly embarresed to ask him for anything. In my heart right now I only pray and hope that HE will forgive and guide me back to HIS path.

RABBI ANSURNI! RABBI! SUBHANAKA INNI KUNTU MINAL DHZOLIMIIN. RABBI! LA HAWALA KUWATA ILLA BILLAH HIL A'LIUL A'ZIMM.

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